Sick

A lot has happened over just the past few days.

My life feels like a whirlwind...

I have a lot of things to do, for school, work, for me. And a lot of emotions within that I don't know how to deal with. My heart feels heavy.

Words that should have never been said came out. Now, I am on the verge of paying the price. Paying the heavy price of losing the most important person in my life. I said I was sorry. But sometimes, that's just not enough. Especially, if it's a repeated mistake. Stupid me. What was I thinking? Have I not learned from my past mistakes? Reality check.

Why does life have to be so complicated sometimes? Or, maybe it's just us, people, that complicate life...

I just want to run away...and come back anew.

I feel sick :(